today has been ok

Browsing thoughtlessly some home goods isle a young man walks up and asks me: "Do you have kids?" "Oh noooo, no I don't!" "Hm, not yet!?" and he kept on walking.
 A couple of minutes later I overhear the (now) familiar question: "Do you have kids?" followed by the same negative answer and then "Hm, not yet!?"

here comes the sun

The true meaning and the intensity of the word betrayal is not something you feel until it comes from a creature you used to call “my best friend”. And then it hits you right in the face: the never ending hours you put into befriending the creature, and all your lingering doubts are vanishing. And you carry on the way you were meant to before befriending the betrayer.

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a different kind of new start

I was madly in love once, twice, several times. I saw you in all your groominess and the first shock was soon overtaken by a severe form of disgust. I can vividly recall your fear of being seen picking me up from a frozen bus station and your quietude for most of the cab ride. Now I put together the last puzzzle pieces and just as vividly I recall your coldness before I left, your surprised voice when I called to wish you happy birthday a couple of years later. The only part that I don`t understand right now is why I cared then, now or anytime. And soon, very soon afterwards I fell once last time in love. Fate? Faith?
Today is an incredibly blessed day. For I know what I am made of and become proud of that. Jealous? hardly the case! Happy? I wish I could be. Curious? of your look when we get to see each other again - a good chance we likely stand still.
The pounding of my heart is no longer to be heard when your name comes up in a random conversation. When lights are fading the glitter comes off and all is left to you is a lingering thought.
I never got to see the pictures after a certain birthday of yours. Pictures are poor reminder of us which were so blind, so lost, so young, so hopelesly indealists, hunters of hopes.
The cicle seems to come to an end. The tomorrow I hoped for is looking shy from the heights of the darkness of the sky. I`ll never let anyone to stop me from flying up high - a height as high as my soul has desired.

uneori

obosesc. tanjesc. visez. aspir. mimez. infurii. detest. ador. dorm. uit. amintesc. recitesc. refac. reduc. recapat. redresez. refuz.
Astazi refuz sa mai obosesc, refuz sa tanjesc in van, refuz sa mai visez cu ochii deschisi, refuz sa aspir la ceva anume, refuz sa mimez implinirea in desavarsita ei lipsa, refuz sa ma mai infurii pe nedrept, refuz sa ma mai detest pentru curajul de a fi eu insami, refuz adorarea muta, refuz sa dorm in plus, refuz sa uit cine sunt, refuz sa-mi amintesc dezamagirile, refuz sa recitesc jurnale vechi, refuz sa refac din cenusa un drum pe care n-am prea pasit deodata, refuz sa reduc volumul plansului, refuz sa recapat mereu si mereu ignorarea absoluta, refuz sa redresez orice tine de capitolul probabil de mai demult incheiat: noi.